I have been on one hell of a journey ever since I moved away from home in 2018.
I got the chance to know who Areeba is.
I had no fucking idea, honestly. I always thought, hm okay I think I can survive and do whatever. Not feel anything, just survive.
But I did so much more than that in the last 2 or so years.
I got the chance to live in Europe, specifically Finland of all places in the world.
I got there as an international student, I was so starry eyed and filled with hope when I landed.
But eventually I started having this rude awakening; where I felt like everyone’s out to get me. Everyone hates me. I am such a failure. The world would be better off without a waste of space and resources like me.
That started my spiral that eventually landed me to a psychiatrist in Finland. She thankfully knew/understood and spike English quite well.
She was probably the first person in many months who showed any form of care or concern towards my well-being.
I got the chance to go to a psychologist too. She eventually did end up ghosting me out of the blue (left her job after the summer break).
But I got the start that I needed in Finland. The start towards my mental health and how to deal with an ever evolving situation which is and was my mental illness.